Fuego del Noche

I don't get it
I really don't... I mean love is supposed to be fun right?
Something you fall into, then everything is Ok?
Then what's wrong with me
That my love sits and dies
and rots away
But will it keep rotting
until nothing is left
Or is that just the mulch
In which will grow a flower
I think
The rot
and the stench is what will come
and from that will not spring flowers
or the blooms of love
but just another love
of something else
someone else
anyone else
but you

Over this weekend I have realized that I don't have to fake anything anymore; everyone that I care about knows enough. They know enough to care, they know enough to be real, and they know enough to know the inner and outermost workings. Or so they think. But should I really let everyone have a glass through which to view my twisted take on reality? Or should they have their own take on my reality?

"...Little you know, Little you care..."

As i reflected on life today i thought of the song "You" by Mya

I didn't know you'd change my world around
When you came into my life I found
That what I've been searchin' for for years
Is standing right in front of me
Friend you were to me
Whenever you stayed up and talked to me
Now it's so hard to believe
That your here with me


You
Your that special one for me
It's you
You have everything I need
In you
No one else can treat me like you
Do do do do do
That's why I'm here with you

The special bond that we share
Nothing else on this Earth compares
It seems like the flower continues to grow (Grow)
Blossom into something beautiful
I reach out my hand to you (I reach out my hand to you)
And hope one day you'll say I do (Say I do)
Anything (Anything)
Everything (Everything)
Hope for your love
Cause

You
Your that special one for me
It's you
You have everything I need
In you
No one else can treat me like you
Do do do do do
That's why I'm here with you

and i came up with this poem

Heaven
If they have radios in heaven
You would be my station
And I’d listen an eternity to you

If they have paint in heaven
You would be my muse
And I’d paint you ‘til the ends of time

If they have music in heaven
You would be my song
And I’d sing you

But then of course they’d have those things
For what would heaven be
Without you.

I wonder if you know who you are........

And I called
But he didn't pick up
So i left a message:

I desire your touch
Your comforting hold
A much wanted escape
From the world so cold

I suffer much
through day and night
experiencing pain
Laced with fright

Not knowing where I'm going

I find myself lost
Knowing that i ought
To have a final destination
While my soul is being bought

And sold

Cheaply I linger
Like a perfume
Permeating the air
of belief

If only i could disappear
Like a stain of breath on a mirror
Never to come back again
What is life for?

A quick end to a millenium of torment
The quenching of the fire
thus dies my flame
The end of Life's desire

He'll Take the pain away...
I know
He'll Take the pain away...

He'll Take the pain away...
I know
He'll Take the pain away...

No more crying tears
No sleepless nights
No weary eyes

He'll Take the pain away...

Though I stumble
Yet will he
supply my
Every need

He'll Take the pain away...

The heart leapt
The fire cooled
But yet
They blazed
In endless
Passion
A fire ever burning

It was cold
The night quiet
But yet
She spoke not
In endless
Serenity
A calm before the storm

The rain fell
And he ran
But Yet
She waited
In endless
Patience
She knew he would come home

Darkness fell
He returned
But Yet
She was gone
In endless
Slumber
…

Now is one of those times where i'm at peace, I'm pleased with my life and my friends and the way i express myself, at peace with me. This is a rare time in my life and i just wanted to inform all of you of this fact. This week however presents interesting hurdles and things to get over, but i think i'll just be content where i am, rather than rushing towards an uncertain future.

So i took the Dante's Inferno Test and I get to go to Purgatory!
Even though i don't know why.....
The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!</b>
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Extreme
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	Moderate
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

Take the Dante's Divine Comedy Inferno Test

My biggest influence in making me a better writer has got to be my friends. When my friends are going through something, somehow helping them out, whether writing them a poem of encouragement, or a song, it helps me to somehow deal with the things that are going on in my life.

The Light Shines
Yet I don't see
The people speak
yet i don't hear
I reach out to touch
Yet, there is nothing there.....

I feel really lonely right now, I miss everyone. I feel like everybody is so far away, Like I'm inaccessible. I'm tired of summer, I want it to end, I want to see everyone and meet new people and talk to teachers and... just have a Life. I miss everybody and if this was a sheet of paper it would be soaked with my tears right now. I don't know i just need everyone, not as a crutch, but to kind of know everyone is alright. ya know? To make everyone feels good and no one is without and no one needs. I miss you all.

So this is my first post in a while and i have some song lyrics that i want to run by everyone so please please please comment on how you think they are thanks a ton!!!

Lackluster Diamond

Verse 1
My life
Is crusted with coal, tormented and troubled
My life
Is silenced with sound, uprooted and ugly
No one sees
No one cares
A lackluster diamond's fares

Chorus
A lackluster diamond shunned by the light
Not conscious of morning
Only of night
A tossed aside jewel
Someone that you’ll
Never understand
A lackluster diamond
O so grand

Verse 2
I see
Souls discarded, at home on the streets
I see
Bodies bombarded, criticized and weak
No one sees
No one cares
A lackluster diamond’s fares

Vamp
Separated
From the light
Berated
In the night
Elated
To know that its over
The Diamond will shine
When its time

Wow sooo many things have been going on lately i really don't know what to say. Route made me feel complete and now all the seniors are leaving. I don't know if i can exist without Angie being around or Meg singing sweetly and making AMAZING collages or with Jared talking to me on the bus. Life just got soooooo complicated all of a sudden. My friends are having more problems, my weight is still affecting me, and i have more things due then my mom: AND SHE HAS A JOB. yuck

Look what i found on Tom's Page!!!

Yeah Adrianna I stole this from a while ago 'cause i got bored.

1. Taken naked pictures? No
2. Painted a room? No
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? No
4. Driven a car? Yes
5. Danced in front of your mirror? Yes
6. Have a crush? Yes
7. Been dumped? No
8. Stolen money from a friend? No
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? No
10. Been in a fist fight? Yes
11. Snuck out of someone else's house? No
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes
13. Been arrested? No
14. Made out with a stranger? Yes
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes
16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor? Yes
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? No
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes
20. Seen someone/something die? Yes
21. Been on a plane? Yes
22. Kissed a picture? Yes
23. Slept in until 3 pm? Yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now? Yes
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes
26. Made a snow angel? Yes
27. Played dress up? No
28. Cheated while playing a game? Yes
29. Been lonely? Yes
30. Fallen asleep at work/school? Yes
31. Been to a club? No
32. Felt an earthquake? Yes
33. Touched a snake? Yes
34. Ran a red light? Yes
35. Been suspended from school? Yes
36. Had detention? No
37. Been in a car accident? Yes
38. Hated the way you look? Yes
39. Witnessed a crime? Yes
40. Pole danced? Hmmmm that depends.....
41. Been lost? Yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? No
43. Felt like dying? Yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes
45. Hurt yourself on purpose? Yes
46. Sang karaoke? Yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes
48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? Yes
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? Yes
50. Kissed in the rain? No
51. Sang in the shower? Yes
52. Had sex in a park? No
53. Had a dream that you married someone? No
54. Glued your hand to something? No
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No
57. Been a cheerleader? No
58. Sat on a roof top? No
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? No
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? Yes
61. Played chicken? No
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? No
63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? No
64. Broken a bone? No
65. Been easily amused? Yes
66. Laugh so hard you cry? Yes
67. Flashed someone? No
68. Cheated on a test? No
69. Forgotten someone's name? Yes
70. Slept naked? No
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? No
72. Opened your eyes underwater? Yes
73. Blacked out from drinking? No
74. Been in a threesome? No
75. Gone to a late night movie? Yes
76. Feared for your life? Yes
77. Failed a class? Almost...
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? Yes
79. Played an instrument for more than 3 hours? Yes
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? No
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? Yes
82. Thrown strange objects? Yes
83. Felt like killing someone? Yes
84. Felt like running away? Yes
85. Ran away? No
86. Did drugs? No
87. Had detention and not attend it? No
88. Done a backwards dive? Yes
89. Made a parent cry? Yes :(
90. Cried over someone? Yes
91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? Yes
92. Dated someone more than once? No
93. Have a dog? No
94. Been pregnant? I hope Not....
95. Own an instrument? Yes
96. Been in a band? Yes
97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No
98. Broken a CD? No
99. Shot a gun? No
100. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends? HELL YES

Question: Is life really worth all the shit people put you through? The work you have to do at school? Is life worth the pain and heartache that you go through because of the way you look? If life worth living and breathing, letting the world know who you are? The Answer: NO So why am i still alive?

Well i got this one from josh and i couldn't believe what answers this quiz came out with

You scored as Linguistics. You should be a Linguistics major!

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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